Friday, May 23, 2003


I took off for a few days to be with my little sister and to show her a good time. We visited Austin, the place I called home for the past few years. I was able to be a good big sister and take her around and show her the fun stuff I used to do from clubbin to eating well to shopping without having to answer to parents. It was suppose to be a good time for me to. I needed to get away from the harshness that was school and the disappointment that was this past semester. And that's just what I did. I got away and left behind a more than patient fiance who waited up for me. I finally attended to my sanity and mental health at the cost of celebrating what would be my up-coming 5 year anniversary with a man who's put up with me for this long. It started out as a mutual suspension and ended up as a complete cut off. I cried a lot, talked to a friend, who assured me that life was like Physics, you have to have just the right amount of time and distance for things to work out. Looks like we had way too much distance and too much time apart. I don't know. I do know that I'm sad and that I've cried quite a bit and that I will miss him and my little kitties. Nothing looks really good right now. People keep telling me I will be okay. Lets hope they're right. Until then, the Cure plays on my cd player non-stop.

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